Measurements

This just popped into my head this morning, there is a lot going on in all of my loved ones lives, so it made me want to write something about it. 

"Some times I feel that I don't measure up but then I realize that God doesn't use a measuring cup So I am fine as I am. " - Asia original quote!

Often times we as people feel like we aren't doing enough, we are not far enough in our careers,  or not doing good enough in school or we are not good enough for our love interest. We all feel this way some times even if we don't admit it. 

Wondering why such and such has an internship and you don't even though you feel your better for the job or is your x-girlfriend's  new boyfriend better looking or suited for her then you are. With all these thoughts all you want to do is be good enough for them, the job, or just anything. We are all our own worst critics. This is true. But why do we spend so much time criticizing ourselves when there is a master plan we haven't any ideas about. 

Maybe we should start looking at things this way as I have, I'll go a head and put myself out there for the sake of the blog but after my last boyfriend and I broke up I often told myself he could have any girl in the world; girls prettier then me with better careers who weren't just a college student, he could have models and actresses and singers, he could have the girls I seen on tv and wanted to be like myself. Yes I felt like all of it was true and he probably could have a number of girls but the fact of the matter is I could have a better relationship, and that was what was out there for me. I couldn't compare myself with these other girls. And by doing this I was only making myself feel worse... So I started looking at things a little differently, I am me and I am important to the people in my life for that. I was important to him even if I wasn't a model just as he was to me for being him. 

Where I was going with this is that there is too much of this happening in this world and It just needs to stop.... God put us all together how we should be and if you think it is less then the next person the person we are only putting ourselves down for no reason. 

 

We were all made as we should have been, there were no mistakes and it is not that we weren't good enough for the job but that there is something better for us waiting. and better for us dosen't always mean better then the last it means better suited for us. 

have a good day people and don't laugh at me too much about my real life experience above ;-)

A$

Please dont tell me things are JUST LIFE....

"When letting go becomes different then letting it go"

Asia started this with this title and never wrote anything under it so I just decided to run with it.

The difference between letting go and letting it go....

It is more than just erasing the pictures, it is erasing the memories.
It is not attending the places that you once used to not because you may run into him, it is because of the times that you shared there... oh how they replay in your mind.
Letting go... letting go... letting it go... let it go... let him go....

It is so hard to let go... not just to let it go... to let him go....
Let go because it is gone
Let it go because you let it go
Let him, go because you cannot let go
It is too difficult to let go because you refuse to let him go... because he really didnt wanna go.
You forced him out...
You let go before you time...
He still has not been able to let go...
You both have not let go

Let go
Let go
Let it go
Let her go
Let him go

You both have let go before your time
So you are caught in eachothers dreams
Dreaming of the next time you will see one another
But when you do
You are too afraid
Because you feel that she has let it go... let you go... out the window... with her last miscellaneous thought.
Because you feel that he has let it go... let you go... out the window... with his last miscellaneous thought.

Not letting go
Not letting it go
Not letting him go
Not letting her go
Not letting each other go because the words "I Love You" repeat in your brain like an echo.

Damn is there a difference of letting go and letting it go? They both hurt, and they both relate to you... Letting go cannot be you... but this is the one thing that I have to do.

I wrote this last year and it has come to light that this was the prefect time to revisit this... whether it is you love life or things in your personal life, letting go and letting it all go it a process that will hurt. I know that first hand.

D♥

What?

What do you want to hear me talk about? For the past few posts from me have been slightly dedicated to love situations or just random babble. But I want to leave it up to the people reading to decide what you want to read from me. Leave a comment under this post or just tell me on twitter. Oh yeah follow me while you are on there if you want.

Is it May or did I get punked?

Good morning Fine Jones experience blog readers. It is a fine morning for me full paper writing and coldness. Is there any reason that is it so damn cold in May and it is the end of May come one 50 is just unacceptable man. 

but off of the weather, I can't really explain how mad I am 

about being up this early working on a paper I should have been doing last night, I am so over school man. I will really feel like I earned my diploma, I'm not saying I was a book worm in college or anything but its been a journey man and I'll feel accomplished when its done. 

UGH I'd rather be sleeping right now, my motivation right now is how awesome my summer will be. Where I'll go, the places I'll see and the book I am going to be writing. I can't wait. I really can't you guys.  

But writing papers this early in the morning just sucks no matter how you look at it. All I can do to get through it is day dream and listen to Cinnamon.... I like this song.... takes me to a 1992 tribe called quest but not type shit place... it has a funny spin to it but that's where the song takes me. "She looks like cinnamon..."   yeah... this'll get me through this paper...

Well people what are you up to this morning what are ya'll listening to???

btw if you haven't downloaded gone fishing go there ---> http://coolxkids.com/ and do it... 

Well back off to paper writing. Have a Good day people. 

A$

Nightly Confession....

Yes this is something  everyone can look forward to from us from now on.....  

but my nightly confession is I like the rain.... I like to cuddle when it rains or snows. I like to just cuddle and talk when the weather is sucky you can really get to know someone... 

"It Tastes Like You But Sweeter"/ My Favorite is Turquoise

I was listening to the Blu mixtape, HerFavoriteColo(u)r, and I was thinking that no one can really grasp there whole mind around the idea of love. Love is a complicated situation.

When you are not in love you are trying to wrap your mind around why you are not in love and when you will find that love. Or you are consuming with something, miscellanous shit or your love of a occupation or hobby.

When you finally find that love, you are wondering if it will end, or is it the best it is going to get or will it get better. When you are in love it is a big book full of questions, Will it end, Is he/she in love with me, Will I fall in love with someone else, Is this what love is, other thoughts that wreck your brain until you cannot fathom the thought of the word love again. You just become accustom to just say "I love you", and mean it sometimes and other times it is just habit.

However, when you are out of love, from being in love, that is the biggest worthless limbo... You constantly reinvent yourself, saying you are over that person this and that. No more love for you, so you start fucking around and realize that you aint lovin yourself. Or you become hard on yourself for letting that love go....

Love is. It is the hardest drug known to man. Sometimes just a Casual Love User... and sometimes I Overdose. Or maybe thats just me... Maybe thats why I have it tatted on my side... maybe thats why they call me Destiny Love.

And if you have not downloaded the mixtape you can do it here.

*Nightly Confession*

Asia came up with the idea of starting to do a nightly confession each night... so I decided to do one tonight... It is not a deep dark secret or anything it is just something on the brain right before the night ends...

Well for me tonight my nightly confession is that I cannot wait to see Disney's "Up" in 3D on Friday. I love Disney animated films and after work I think I am going to go to the Lake show and see the new movie... I really cannot wait...


I know i am such a dork. Oh well. I live a good dorky life. Hit me up if you want to join me...lol


D♥

When The Sun Sets...

Today when the sun set, I looked at a few things differently. There has been a lot going on what i am not ready to delve into right now. Just to say i have been crying so much that my eyes are now bruised, as long with my heart. But today was different, I stood up and understood everything. Everything would be, "I cannot control everything." That is pretty hard for me to accept because i have a open heart, and I a heavy thinker so i try to fix everything that seems unknown. With me or someone that i care about. Anyway, as I watched the sun set, I just sighed... because that is all i can do right now. With all the stress that i have had this week, the sunset was calming and comforting even tho i was alone, i feel that all my emotions were sheltered from the storm that they encountered. Thanks to the sunset and all the support that i have had i am currently content, and everything will be ok.

D♥

Re-Cap

Ok I know it has been a long time since the last post. I have to apologize. There has been hella shit going on in the past month. Let's quickly re-cap.

1) Drama

2) Love

3) Drama

4) New Tattoo

5) Drama

6) New Summer CD

7) New Apartment

8) Fun

9) Loss

10)Drama

11) Money

12) Sanity

13) Realization

14) Happiness

15) VESPA!!!

That is what i am going to pick up right now... wish me luck

D. Love.

Good Morning.

I just really wanted to say Hi world. That's it. 

When People Drag You Down... There Is Someone To Pick You Up

Just wanted to share something that got last night... I dont know how many of are as a big of a fan of John Legend's "Another Again" as I am.... but I didnt know it had a video and my dude Bradley turned me out on it. Thought I would share. Click here for the video.

TODAY IS A GOOD DAY....

And fuck anyone who says any different. If you woke up and your feet touched the ground. You're good. You are having a good day. Stop with all this negative bullshit. Smile.


SMILE

Just a Lovely reminder from Destiny Love Jones

Spring Break: Tuesday

Ok, Tuesday was hella random but hella fun.

It all started when Asia had to go to a doctors appointment in the suburbs and I went along for the ride. (on our way to the south suburbs)


Lets just say that, I learned a few things about Asia that I could have not known...lol.

(Yea... Imma just put that info in the imaginary box and tuck it away)

Well after that we went that we went to the thrift store and found some great things....

(No Picture)

We listened to some great music and took some goofy pictures. (Marc by Marc Jacobs Pen that happens to be shaped like red lipstick)



And the best part is that we got my favorite food.... RED LOBSTER!!!!!
(I destroyed the shrimp, salad and biscuits)




(Our discussion about how we felt about the music)


D♥

Spring Break Monday Funday

Spring break was lovely folks. Me and Destiny did not opt to go out of state for break we stayed here and had awesome adventures around the city. 

Sunday wasn't a good night for Destiny or I, after sitting down and putting our heads together we devised a plan to have a great break  and cancel our plans to visit Cali. Monday Funday would consist of good breakfast and a movie. We planned to wake up early and venture into the city. 

When  we woke up that morning we dressed and took the redline to The Original House Of Pancakes we had a delightful breakfast and choose to take the redline once more after breakfast to see a movie. So that we did we went to a Lowes by Depaul and saw "The Last House on the Left" and I thought it was pretty scary Destiny begged to differ. I was pretty scared, and to top it all off we were the only people in the theater. After our movie we had to journey back home... We were a long way from the south loop.

We got there played with Darla, Des' pug and took naps. When we all woke up it was hella late and we had a taste for ribs. But the problem was that it was past midnight and no rib joints were open, Destiny's i-Phone came in handy and we found a place on the southside. 75th and Perrie. We hopped into the VW and drove the whole way blasting GUCCI! got our ribs and called it a night.... 

MONDAY FUNDAY!

but Tuesday was not bore. 

A$

Things I'm sick of at this point.

Hi world there have been things that have really been getting on my nerves lately and I would like to share them with you. 

1. BLOGS, OK I know I'm not the only 1 on the planet who can have a blog but like seriously I don't get why some people have them, and I'm not conceited enough to believe everyone is copying me and Destiny, but seriously? people blogging about fashion who don't know or have anything to do with it, and people blogging about their lives and really who cares????? I don't think everyone cares about our but seriously if you don't intend on having a future in writing why waste you time blogging, about things? I don't know but the million blogs that are popping up is really bothering the shit out of me. 

2. People going hard (Acting tough and shit) on the Internet let me tell you people FACEBOK IS NOT REAL LIFE!!!!!! and I repeat FACEBOOK IS NOT REAL LIFE  nor is any other method of Internet expression. If you would to say anything to another person damnit say it to their face... don't go read their "Status" or look their pics become offended and dedicate a status to them, this has happened to me toooo many times and its wack people please STOP! Save all that drama mess for someone else or simply if you have anything to say to me anything at all just say it to me when you see me out instead of standing around mugging me.... that is also wack. 

3. DJ's.... Look as a DJ you job is to spin records last night I was at Creshendos and I walked up to the booth to request a song is the DJ looked at me like I was fucking retarded and said nothing to me, he didn't even give me an opportunity to ask about the song, it seemed as though he thought I was trying to "groupie" and No sir thats not me.... not everyone wants to f*** the DJ's and if your job is to play what the people want to hear then damnit u should take request your not to good for that. 

4. The "bandwagon" this simply means one person do something then a gang of people are like yeah that's cool lets do it too... I' sick of that. 

5. Being single 

6. Cold weather

7. the Cta

8. People who don't like Gucci music

That's all I have for now folks.... those are all the things that are pissing me off. 

Pole Dancing

I have no special powers,

I am no X Men,

No Wonder Woman,

But yet you still think I am invincible.

But to you I am invisible.

There at your every beckon call,

There to support your every emotion,

There to catch you when you fall,

But yet invincible and invisible.

I deal with the pain

You give me the pain

I deal with it in secret

You think I am invincible

I feel I am invisible

I run away,

You catch me to bring me back

So you can be invincible

And I can be Invisible.

D♥

A Lot about love....

Well I know my last few posts have been about love and wanting to find it or wanting someone. I want to address this issue. NO I am not in love with anyone, I know that really isn't something you could tell from my writing. *Smirks* but Naw I am not. I can admit however that I get myself into relationships and they get me to feel a certain type of way and a then I write. Writing is something I don't think about I just do it, it just comes out. This much I can say as well none of my poetry or writing is ABOUT any guy, its about how I feel or how I feel in relation to them. It's about the emotion NOT the guy. I've wanted to say that for a while I write tons of poetry some of it make it to the Internet facebook and blog etc. but the vast majority of it never leaves the pages of my journal.

BUUUUUUTTT I was just watching pretty woman and the impossible idea of a hooker meeting a millionaire and him falling for her didn't fail to entertain, but seemed like it could never happen. But if you think about it, the crap happens all the time. But that's neither there or there, a line from the movie really resonated with me, "the bad stuff is always easier to believe" this in my opinion is very true. In life it's easier to believe the bad stuff because bad tends to happen more often then good, at least in my life. 

I really did not have a purpose in sitting down to write this blog those things were just on my mind and I felt like sharing them, chick flicks are awesome, but they always get you to thinking and hoping for that movie kind of romance the one that the impossible happens like a hooker gets a millionaire or your childhood sweetheart moves to China comes back at 27 because he's still in love with you.... that shit never happens but its fun to believe it does for 2 hours until to movie ends

In real life people don't get into huge fights and not talk for several years then bump into each other on the street and declare that they never stopped loving each other if it ends in a big fight and you guys run into each other years later you might give each other a dirty look and keep moving... that's life... the movies just tend to make you hopeful I guess. 

Hopeful that the cloud with a sliver lining exist... or that there is a Richard Gere looking for you... 

A$

Candle flicker and shimmer...

These are the lyrics to the song that is playing on my pandora right now and it made me want to write something.... read it.....

All I know is that you're so nice,You're the nicest thing I've seen.I wish that we could give it a go,See if we could be something.I wish I was your favorite girl,I wish you thought I was the reason you are in the world.I wish my smile was your favorite kind of smile I wish the way that I dressed was your favourite kind of style.I wish you couldn't figure me out,But you always wanted know what I was about.I wish you'd hold my hand when I was upset,I wish you'd never forget the look on my face when we first met.I wish you had a favorite beauty spot that you loved secretly,'Cos it was on a hidden bit that nobody else could see.Basically, I wish that you loved me,I wish that you needed me,I wish that you knew when I said two sugars, actually I meant three.I wish that without me your heart would break,I wish that without me you'd be spending the rest of your nights awake.I wish that without me you couldn't eat,I wish I was the last thing on your mind before you went to sleep.look All I know is that you're the nicest thing I've ever seen.and I wish that we could see if we could be something.I wish that we could see if we could be something.

I really like that song...




I feel what shes saying I guess, I want something special somehting I dont have something more then what I have I guess. I think a lot of girls can relate to wanting to be wanted and desired on a deeper level then just sex or the physical, but many of us don't get that. We stumble on realtionship after relatinship falling in and out of like/love with guys who only want us for the night, its sad but its true. The only light at the end of the tunnel that I can find in this whole big mess is that..... You gain a lot of wisdom in these journeys. And you find out how low or high another person can make you feel. Not sure if thats actally a ligth... well call it a shimmer at the end of the tunnel... happy Fri. the 13th people. ....

A$

*sings to self* "I wish my smile was your favorite kind of smile I wish the way that I dressed was your favourite kind of style".......

Break?

Well today is like my last day of class before break these last 2 weeks have been stupid trying. I've had so many papers and projects to pull together and  think I am almost there. I have a 4 page paper and power point presentation I need to generate before 1:30, it's 11:38 right now and I haven't started... I have problems I know but I am totally burnt out. Really I don't have any more attention to give, energy, nothing. I just want to waste time, sounds bad but I want to just like nap in a friends bed on a 80 degree day with my jeans on... 

In the midst of all the hell I lived threw these past 2 weeks I spent a lot of time thinking... things are so funny in my life right now, On New Years eve I made a pact with my girls that we'd have the best year ever 09 would be like the best thing to happen to us we would travel and find world wind romances and like sit on the beach and share 40 oz's crazy. Not all of that happened but a lot of it happened for some of us, we made it threw like 3 crazy months of absolute fun. some of us found that romance thing and I think that's awesome so your waiting for the but. There isn't one I don't believe everyone found what they were looking for, even me, my find wasn't wrapped in the paper of a romance or even a sandy beach with a forty and friends but rather a chance. 

A chance to, well I haven't figured out an exact word for my chance but to basically to do all the things I been saying I'd do. Things I'd dreamt about, places i dreamt abut living, starting the books I want to write and a chance to develop me. I am me yeah, but I can't remember a time I  existed on my own. DAMN that was a dose of truth yes people I am human. But ever since I could remember I had Destiny, or Lindsay or Tasha, or Sam, or Mitch, or Whitney or Antoine, or Chirsti or Vic... that's a lot of people but I they weren't all there at the same time but in my life at certain points each of them was my support system. There when I needed to vent or was lonely or wanted to laugh, They are all not gone but not there how they once were, NOT a bad thing at all.  I think at this point I have to find my own way, and God is defiantly positioning things in my life right now for me to do so.  

Finding yourself can be very scary and people hate to admit this because everyone loves to think they know exactly who they are and where they are going. Not me, I'm real I know I don't have all the answers, I don't know exactly who I am yet, I have an idea of who I want to be and from that long paragraph up there *points up on the page* am figuring out the path to get there.  

It's noon and I still haven't started that paper. 

I sat down to blog about something else and I guess this is what was really on my mind... funny how that happens to me. I wanted to talk about how lazy I am and how I want a break to be more lazy and how March has sucked for me. How I am the only person I know who is still single and I hate it, and how guys and people suck in general. I guess that's not how I really feel though. I don't think guys suck, I think that I don't invest the right things into relationships and then give up when they don't go the way I want them to, I don't settle for anything less then perfect, strange because I'm not, something I need to work on. People don't suck either I think people just need to be them and that's just dandy, I need to be me and find that thing that makes me forget about things too, or lose interest in all the bullshit that clogs up my life such as facebook and my sidekick. (sidebar i need a new phone if any one has a iPhone 3g for sale please let me know) OK so I have officially went off on a tangent so I'll end here

I am Asia right now today March 12th 2009 

I am not the conventional beauty, 

I'm not a girlfriend, 

I'm a student

I'm a friend

I'm Stubborn

I'm in pj's

I'm jobless

and I don't know what any of this means and I don't know where it's all going but....

I'll see.... 

It's 12:40 and I haven't started on that paper. 

A$

its over

its over and you know what i didnt think that it would hurt this bad. but it does... i cannot breathe. i cannot see. i cannot think. just emotion, and pain. i cannot differaicate between the two. i cannot tell if i am happy or if i am sad. i just know that there is pain. its over. i called it. i took for granted the good times and appericated the bad time too much. i thought of the arguements and not the laughter. i thought of the tears that i cried and not you wiping them away. will i be able to appericate the next or was it just you? am i just pushing out these tears to get over you? will that ever happen? thinking that if i was a boy i would know how i treated you, the roles were reversed, i was your mr. big and you were my carrie.... all you wanted was love and i felt that i had to many heartbreaks... i didnt believe in love. i see that i know what love is because i felt it with you....


there isnt any correct english here, there are no capital letters here, because there is no importance to these words... because it is over. they mean nothing... you are gone... i am here, you are there. its over.

d♥

rainsained Heart

Days like this rainy march Saturday wouldn't be spent partying how they are now, rather in my car on the way to get fried rice and some movies.... low budget scary movies to be exact those are my favorite.... going back to my loft making our plates getting comfortable and watching them movies, you laughing at how horrible they are and me laughing at you... cuddling.. Soon the tv is watching us and our full bellys and when we'd wake up to that blue screen I'd go for a pee and to refill our cups come back to some kisses and conversation or conversations turnt to kisses..talking about where we been where we goin... what we think we know at this age... that youthful kinda wisdom... just hugging as we talked... taking it all in, the smells the feelings and the taste of u... sentences finished with kisses instead of periods and new ones started with an embrace instead of a subject noun....or verb.. the night seemed to last forever, we'd tell our entire life stories to each other right there.... listening to the rain... making such an ugly day too damn perfect... we'd get to this point of silence I'm not sure what to call it, it'd just start with some intense kissing and be intertwined in each other before we knew it...ending the night with physical merriment.... passing out in each other......Tomorrow will be beautiful.... just like all those tomorrows were....

A$

Random... Noon...almost 1.

*Pandora is great.... I am such a hippy though I am listening to Lykke Li radio and like almost every song that plays wait I'm lying I haven't skipped once I like all the music. Only things playing are Kate Nash, Fiest,lykke li, Smoosh, Taken by trees and some chick named Mariah....

* I am annoyed with the people who like Lykke li now that they have heard the Drake mixtape.... "little bit" is her song... not his.. that was out like last year or even before then....

*The lyrics to the song that is playing right now "goodnight nother bad morning" if that shit isn't so true...

* how do you break up with someone you don't go with i think I did that last night.

I didn't want to though I was on that "for the best" shit. I hate that..... why cant we just be reckless and live life consequence free...

*worlds not perfect guess that's why.

* earlier there was a song that was playing about seeing the person your with kiss someone else in front of you... that's actually happened to me in life... it sucks but I laughed at the song, and the situation/// wonder what that means/

* I have been typing shit all morning, really, homework, work work, and more work work.

* I am hungry. very hungry seriously.

* i have also come to the conclusion that I am a good friend. yeah.... weird thought..

*whats next?

Should I Be Insulted, Or Flattered?

I don't if I should be flattered or insulted. This is real random. Actually some outta pocket shit.

I dont mess around with people like that for them to ask me for this shit.

This convo started off as "I think that (Blank) asked me to have a threesome"

Life is CRAY CRAY!

(lovedu)2sundaymorning.

rearranging the already arranged conclusion of this love affair in my head is most depressing

i was stupid, i'll start there... well its the only place i can start or the first of confused thoughts about it all that pops into my head...

i thought... no I didnt think, had i put any thought what so ever into it, i might not feel like this

feel... feel so stupid....  i was  looking for a better word then stupid but its the only one that seems to fit the description as to how im feeling 

cheap.

cheap sex after long nights out although in the mist of it all i never felt so expensive

can expensive even be a feeling? im not sure

I jus know your appreciation for my body exceeded my past lovers even the ones who were in love with me. 

the absence of love and the presence of passion i guess.

guessing, seems to be the only thing ive been doing lately, guessing how you may feel how it will end wondering if it has to

but knowing it will, it will end before it ever starts, it hasnt a chance of stardom..... 

and also knowing this cant be right but guessing or hoping rather that it stands a chance. 

but i guess knowing in the end it very well may not.

(lovedu)2sundaymorning.

A$

 

10:53 Randomness.

I need something new in my life... Instead of doing something stupid like cutting my hair, or move to another state, I have decided to go shopping tomorrow.

I only have had about 6 hours of real sleep in the past 2 days.

I really wanted to go see Solange at the House of Blues tonight but the lack of me being in the loop prevented me from doing so.

I hate when people act so stuck up about Facebook. "I am not going accept friends if they look whack" .... It is fucken Facebook. Get over yourself.

I really want to sing. Like really sing. Not just sing and then call myself a singer.

I think I have a shopping addiction.

A few weeks ago... when I was drunk... I came up with a concept. Juking is just pep talking the dick for the girl that goes home with it.

"Overnight StupidStar": Someone who does dumb shit to get famous. Including groupies.

You are not a fashion designer if you go to the thrift store and cut up a shirt and call it your design. You should just call Urban Outfitters and ask for a job for Urban Renewal.

If you know me you know I do not like sushi.

I was in the middle of sewing... and I had all these thoughts... so I decided to write them down for you to read... I am done so I think I will go back to sewing.

D♥

Friday. "Only in Lake Forest High School"

So I went to a basketball game in Lake Forest... It was a big rival school against Zion and Lake Forest at Lake Forest High School. It was a good game. However, I went into the bathroom and saw this sign when I was washing my hands...

Now this is so funny, because I have been accused of having a eating disorder (that's funny in itself) and just the thought that being skinny is something that is beautiful. Now, I am not saying that having an eating disorder is funny, if you have one please get help. My personal definition of being beautiful is being yourself. Don't let anyone or society tell you that being a certain way is right.

After this sign I went and ate a 16 oz. steak at J. Alexander's and a nice cold Heniken.

What a sign. What a night.

D♥

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Thursday. "Clip His Wings"

Yup the start of the weekend is Thursday. This Thursday we decided to attend the 10 dolla holla (we didnt have to pay;) at Ole Lounge on Lincoln and Diversey. Open bar from 10 til 12... umm we are there.

Thursday was pretty chill. The crowd was small but it much to expect when it was so cold. But we had fun. To wrap things up, the night consisted of good music drinks, laughter, more drinks, dancing, more drinks, the bathroom, some more dancing, and one or two more drinks. Oh yeah then some tacos.

But I really does puzzle me how some men/women get so aggressive over women/men. How I see it is, people are going to do what they want to do. You do not have the power to make someone stay with you. You can give them the reasons, however if they want to do something they will do it.

Ok with that vent done... I said a lot of funny things on Thursday.... I cannot really tell you what I was referencing, one because I cannot remember, and some other things...lol. Some funny things that were mentioned were.

Clip his wings... so he can't fly.
I am depressed for her with that outfit.
Kept your pussy in his pocket.

But anyway, you probably dont think the quotes are funny because you werent there... but next week you should be.

D&hearts


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Friday. Funny Valentine. Saturday. Cupid's Chokehold

Friday.

Flowers at work.
Food.
Funny Valentine.

D♥


Saturday.

Well, Well... Who had a Valentine on Valentines day? Who knows and who cares. All we know is that we had fun and I think everyone at Tonic knew too...

Red Velvet Cake and Sequin Hot Pants.
Rose' Moet, Ciroc and Goose.
Family and Friends.
Drunken Hot Girls and a Cab.
Tonic and Tacos (Destiny with the Tacos).
Music.
Juking Cupid.
Boys, Backseats, and Alleyways.
Feelings and Hearts in my Back Pocket.
Missed Phone Calls and Text Messages.

And for others....

Drunk and Numb.
Sex and Magnums.
Less Magnums then Sex...
Liquored Kisses.
Scope

A$ and D♥

Tuesday.

Man this day was great. Too bad we don't have a day in the life picture.

I woke up to a knock on m door and it was Asia. We talked and we decided to take a walk to her house and then come back to my house and work on homework together... These things are always fun because we always talk and joke around and it makes the most annoying tasks like homework enjoyable.

So when the homework was done, Asia rushed off to class and with me having the day off, I decided to download some of my favorite music... so that I did, I opened my windows, cleaned, and listened to my favorite music.

At around 4 Asia and I ventured off to the world and Wicker Park was our destination. We went to the good ol' St. Alfred's for a particular beenie, The Joneses, which is pretty dope.

The job with buying The Joneses Hat, we decided to shop for a few other necessary objects....;)

The rest of the night consisted of walking around the city talking and having a good time. And walking down State St. we ran into "Gutta" who we had an interesting convo with.

I asked him why he stopped on the middle of the sidewalk, he said to get a better look at us, and I asked did he need glasses and he was like " HELL NAW, YEAH"... Gutta really heightened our night.

After that we just chilled and almost went to Bar Louie, but opted out and just went to potbelly's and watched the bootlegged Quarentine, which was awesome.

Days like these are great because they help me realize how great the summer is gonna be.

Saturday. Cir-ROC'n In Rooms and Lounges

Let me just dive right in....

Last night me and Destiny started off trying to go bowling and not clubbing but we ended up going to more bars and lounges then we ever do on a Sat.

We started off at the Jewel... yeah the Jewel, we wanted some Ciroc Destiny said it's a smooth drink, but the price wasn't so smooth. Don't get me wrong its not hella expensive but right now I don't have a paying job. So we decided to go to Sammy's to see if we could get it for cheaper because I was trying to ball out with some Ciroc but I was working with a Smirnoff budget. That's so sad. I am going to get another job after winter quarter I promise, but back to the night. It was still too expensive until I got a call form my daddy and well Ciroc happened for us...

We decided to start the bar hopping at a bar that is a block away from my old apartment called Legroom. Its a nice little spot but for older people but they have a drink called grape Kool-Aid.....GO THERE AND GET THAT! its so good. But we did not stay there long my friend Josh met us there but they would not let him in with sneakers on. So Des and I downed the kool-aids and ran to the red line with Josh.

*Drink-O- Meter. ** Asia- 4 cups of Ciroc+1 Grape Kool-Aid Destiny 3 cps of Ciroc+ 1 Grape Kool-Aid****

The train ride was fun I don't know why either. I had to potty so we basically ran from the Fullerton stop to our next stop Tonic room.... Man we were in a lot of rooms last night. Tonic was pretty cool lots of familiar faces and cool music. We didn't drink more here but we danced some. We left after a bit Josh went home and Des and I went to Par Lounge. There we met up with our buddies O.J and Scott.

**Drink-O-Meter*** Asia Same and Destiny 3 cups of Ciroc+1 Grape Kool-Aid+ Some Patron....***

Par was nice kinda crowded but nice. We decided to leave there and go to Lava Lounge. Lava..... it was nice and it ended our night.......

We found ourselves both at my apartment having some Chef-boy-R-D and some Family Guy. Good Night weekend see you soon.
A$

Friday. "Last Night The DJ Saved My Life"

Friday was a solo dolo night. I describe one of these nights is where you go out, without our friends and see who you run into. Well that was the plan for me and I went to my very good friend Rio's party in Logan Square which was pretty dope. While I was there I i same Mic Terror and Mano preform. After that we all dipped off to Redno5 for Hollywood Holt's set. I can say that I had a really good time there... Minus the fight that broke out in the middle of the dance floor, and dudes who make reference to their penis getting hard while you are dancing with them... or the dudes who decide that it is ok to pull items off of people (my hat that I was wearing). To be honest I had a ball. Not to have to worry about anything but having a good time. The music was amazing. Nigel downstairs and Timbuck2 upstairs I was in heaven musically. Timbuck2 made my life (not my night, my life) when he played Track 10 from Kid Cudi's mixtape. It was fun to be around people who just want to have fun and not who is watching them have fun. Cool night.


Tonight: We will be all over the city. Bowling, Drinks, Pool, Drunk Stories, etc

Let's what tonight holds.

D♥

Mother Nature is a bitch.....

Ok this will be quick.. I just want to update you guys on a few things before I start and complete this paper that is due at 3:30.... it is 2:08 so I don't have long.





<3> Bae's kids... really but not at that amusement Park like cold and shit not warm...



<3> been as regular with the posting lately. We have embarked on a few new adventurous career opportunities and are learning to juggle Jobs... Jobs... school.. running our won site... and having some what of a dramatic social life... it's hard... and to top it off I'm broke.... yeah I'm not too proud to admit that 1.



<3 Destiny is aiming me hold on.....


<3 I hope your Valentines day is full of some booty shaking....I'm not throwing a party or nothing I just hope your v-day will be fun I don't have a fucking Valentine so I don't know what mine will be like besides some booze


<3>Feb 19th if you wanna see me dance drunkly to single ladies you'll come to Ole Lounge.


<3> besides all the foolery I want to thank all that read our blog.. it means a lot to us after all we are just two random cousins blogging about the random things we do and WE promise if you sit tight for a bit longer you wont be disappointed..... the Blog will be updated soon....



Oh yeah I started this off with intentions on telling you guys about how fucking cold I am..... I guess that says it now back to writing this paper..... it 2:16 I don't have much time left......



p.s I had to go back and rewrite everything because the computers in the library suck..... now off to write this paper....

A$

O..O....Ole........ 2812 N Lincoln

Last Thurs. I went Ole Lounge to hear my homie G spin I had never been there and thought that maybe the coldest night of the year so far would be a good start.... Well let me tell you it was.  Hero George did a fine job I had a blast. Ole is possibly the perfect Thursday spot. well that's just how I'm feeling in 09'. Sexy..... and that's how I felt in jeans and a tee at the Ole Lounge.  Im going tomorrow come join me... 

Hero George (the Dj) plays just what you want to hear and the bartender I don't know her name hooked me up with a Pez tasting martini... come out!

A$

MLK!!!!

Man, I have a lot of dreams but I have yet to dream as big as this man. I see a lot of things in my daily life that I know that Dr. Martin Luther King Jr. would be a shamed of... *Soulja Boi*  OK that wasn't totally a good joke you get what I am saying how some young black men and women carry themselves and especially how easily some of us give up. Not Going to college to peruse dreams of quick money instead of an education, a privilege for us that he fought to the death for. not many people even think about this day past it being a day off but we really should. There is a lot that we wouldn't even be able to do without the life of such a great man. I hope that one day I can liv up to the dream....

Besides that I am sure that Dr. King would be proud of what we will be celebrating tomorrow. I am sure that he is looking down from heaven happy that a day after his day we will be celebrating the inauguration of the first AFRICAN-AMERICAN president. President Barak Obama!

A$

the DEATH of friends

It happened on a Sunday I remember.... or was it a Saturday? Well I guess I don't remember how I thought I did I just know it was the 13Th of July. He died....

It didn't hurt so much at the time, I didn't cry, I wasn't even mad. I can't even say I'm mad now. I was for a while though. I watched it happen over time I watched at a distance wanting to say something but not. "It's not worth it" I can't say that it wasn't but I'll never know if it was.

For a while I hung on to the memories of a person I used to know, and well at that. I didn't think it'd happen this way I didn't think I'd actually want to let him go. But I did, I do.....I do...

Rest in Piece. Live in Piece. With out me.

Now the second time I can't say I remember a date. A different person has drifted away. I think this hurt less and more all at the same time, the death of a friend. Ouch.

The memories of you thouh I can't say are so vivid, I just remember being there. Tears fell I caught them. Your back I had it. thick and thin I stuck through it. But not any more. Is that wrong?

Naw I can't say I feel wrong in this situation I didn't watch this happen over time there's nothing I can do any more.

So I stopped.

I held the two of you so close to my heart and it is OK. I'm sure every one involved is in a better place.

R.I.P Dear Friends Indeed.

A$

21... You Thought That I Was Older Huh?

I am 21... Yeah.



It has been about 12 hours since the end of my birthday... and I am finally 21. I have been 21 for about 3 years going out and partying... But officially turning 21 is great and unexplainable I can say... My 21st birthday was great. Thanks to all who helped me celebrate it. I can say with my birthday passing i am content with life. Dont get me wrong, I still have goals that I will achieve. I am just content with everything that happened to me in the past. 21 starts a new point... it threw a curve in the road of life.

So for my 21st I went to Tonic Room on Saturday at midnight and partied my ass off... Drinks and good music... Then I went to Lava and busted my ass outside of Lava. But went in and danced off the embarassment. Thanks to Inglish for playing one of my favorite songs that ended the night.

And for sunday it was more of a chill night. I went out to dinner with my parents and then went to the Kit Kat Lounge which was wonderful. Thanks for the people that did come out.

Thanks to all the bday wishes that I recieved. I really appericate all the people that surrounded me on my birthday... it means so much!

D♥

If Every Night's a Party.....

If every night's a party then may I ask what are the mornings??? Well I'll tell ya!

If every night is a party then a mornings go a little like this....

Wake up, head hurts, breath stinks.... a long PPPPPEEEEEEEEEE and then to the camera... lets see what I can't remember.... WOW looks like I had a blast, thats how we got to lava... a cab... ugh the X.... why did we take a picture together?? the photos can't answer that. Let's call Destiny she'll know. aim, aim, aim, answers laughs and more laughs wow last night was good.....

OR if every night's a party your morning could go like this.......

Wake up.... roll over.... ugh...... the X...... O my.... how did I get myself into this one? not sure I gotta get outta here before she wakes up.....then call my guy and ask him why did he let me leave with this crazy B****. Shucks she's waking up... ummmm ummmm ummmm.....

Or a morning like this....

Wake up, laugh at the time you had the evening before and enjoy being young and able to do this crazy shit.... 

Because if every night's a party the mornings are gaurented  to be hilarious....