Spring Break: Tuesday

Ok, Tuesday was hella random but hella fun.

It all started when Asia had to go to a doctors appointment in the suburbs and I went along for the ride. (on our way to the south suburbs)


Lets just say that, I learned a few things about Asia that I could have not known...lol.

(Yea... Imma just put that info in the imaginary box and tuck it away)

Well after that we went that we went to the thrift store and found some great things....

(No Picture)

We listened to some great music and took some goofy pictures. (Marc by Marc Jacobs Pen that happens to be shaped like red lipstick)



And the best part is that we got my favorite food.... RED LOBSTER!!!!!
(I destroyed the shrimp, salad and biscuits)




(Our discussion about how we felt about the music)


D♥

Spring Break Monday Funday

Spring break was lovely folks. Me and Destiny did not opt to go out of state for break we stayed here and had awesome adventures around the city. 

Sunday wasn't a good night for Destiny or I, after sitting down and putting our heads together we devised a plan to have a great break  and cancel our plans to visit Cali. Monday Funday would consist of good breakfast and a movie. We planned to wake up early and venture into the city. 

When  we woke up that morning we dressed and took the redline to The Original House Of Pancakes we had a delightful breakfast and choose to take the redline once more after breakfast to see a movie. So that we did we went to a Lowes by Depaul and saw "The Last House on the Left" and I thought it was pretty scary Destiny begged to differ. I was pretty scared, and to top it all off we were the only people in the theater. After our movie we had to journey back home... We were a long way from the south loop.

We got there played with Darla, Des' pug and took naps. When we all woke up it was hella late and we had a taste for ribs. But the problem was that it was past midnight and no rib joints were open, Destiny's i-Phone came in handy and we found a place on the southside. 75th and Perrie. We hopped into the VW and drove the whole way blasting GUCCI! got our ribs and called it a night.... 

MONDAY FUNDAY!

but Tuesday was not bore. 

A$

Things I'm sick of at this point.

Hi world there have been things that have really been getting on my nerves lately and I would like to share them with you. 

1. BLOGS, OK I know I'm not the only 1 on the planet who can have a blog but like seriously I don't get why some people have them, and I'm not conceited enough to believe everyone is copying me and Destiny, but seriously? people blogging about fashion who don't know or have anything to do with it, and people blogging about their lives and really who cares????? I don't think everyone cares about our but seriously if you don't intend on having a future in writing why waste you time blogging, about things? I don't know but the million blogs that are popping up is really bothering the shit out of me. 

2. People going hard (Acting tough and shit) on the Internet let me tell you people FACEBOK IS NOT REAL LIFE!!!!!! and I repeat FACEBOOK IS NOT REAL LIFE  nor is any other method of Internet expression. If you would to say anything to another person damnit say it to their face... don't go read their "Status" or look their pics become offended and dedicate a status to them, this has happened to me toooo many times and its wack people please STOP! Save all that drama mess for someone else or simply if you have anything to say to me anything at all just say it to me when you see me out instead of standing around mugging me.... that is also wack. 

3. DJ's.... Look as a DJ you job is to spin records last night I was at Creshendos and I walked up to the booth to request a song is the DJ looked at me like I was fucking retarded and said nothing to me, he didn't even give me an opportunity to ask about the song, it seemed as though he thought I was trying to "groupie" and No sir thats not me.... not everyone wants to f*** the DJ's and if your job is to play what the people want to hear then damnit u should take request your not to good for that. 

4. The "bandwagon" this simply means one person do something then a gang of people are like yeah that's cool lets do it too... I' sick of that. 

5. Being single 

6. Cold weather

7. the Cta

8. People who don't like Gucci music

That's all I have for now folks.... those are all the things that are pissing me off. 

Pole Dancing

I have no special powers,

I am no X Men,

No Wonder Woman,

But yet you still think I am invincible.

But to you I am invisible.

There at your every beckon call,

There to support your every emotion,

There to catch you when you fall,

But yet invincible and invisible.

I deal with the pain

You give me the pain

I deal with it in secret

You think I am invincible

I feel I am invisible

I run away,

You catch me to bring me back

So you can be invincible

And I can be Invisible.

D♥

A Lot about love....

Well I know my last few posts have been about love and wanting to find it or wanting someone. I want to address this issue. NO I am not in love with anyone, I know that really isn't something you could tell from my writing. *Smirks* but Naw I am not. I can admit however that I get myself into relationships and they get me to feel a certain type of way and a then I write. Writing is something I don't think about I just do it, it just comes out. This much I can say as well none of my poetry or writing is ABOUT any guy, its about how I feel or how I feel in relation to them. It's about the emotion NOT the guy. I've wanted to say that for a while I write tons of poetry some of it make it to the Internet facebook and blog etc. but the vast majority of it never leaves the pages of my journal.

BUUUUUUTTT I was just watching pretty woman and the impossible idea of a hooker meeting a millionaire and him falling for her didn't fail to entertain, but seemed like it could never happen. But if you think about it, the crap happens all the time. But that's neither there or there, a line from the movie really resonated with me, "the bad stuff is always easier to believe" this in my opinion is very true. In life it's easier to believe the bad stuff because bad tends to happen more often then good, at least in my life. 

I really did not have a purpose in sitting down to write this blog those things were just on my mind and I felt like sharing them, chick flicks are awesome, but they always get you to thinking and hoping for that movie kind of romance the one that the impossible happens like a hooker gets a millionaire or your childhood sweetheart moves to China comes back at 27 because he's still in love with you.... that shit never happens but its fun to believe it does for 2 hours until to movie ends

In real life people don't get into huge fights and not talk for several years then bump into each other on the street and declare that they never stopped loving each other if it ends in a big fight and you guys run into each other years later you might give each other a dirty look and keep moving... that's life... the movies just tend to make you hopeful I guess. 

Hopeful that the cloud with a sliver lining exist... or that there is a Richard Gere looking for you... 

A$

Candle flicker and shimmer...

These are the lyrics to the song that is playing on my pandora right now and it made me want to write something.... read it.....

All I know is that you're so nice,You're the nicest thing I've seen.I wish that we could give it a go,See if we could be something.I wish I was your favorite girl,I wish you thought I was the reason you are in the world.I wish my smile was your favorite kind of smile I wish the way that I dressed was your favourite kind of style.I wish you couldn't figure me out,But you always wanted know what I was about.I wish you'd hold my hand when I was upset,I wish you'd never forget the look on my face when we first met.I wish you had a favorite beauty spot that you loved secretly,'Cos it was on a hidden bit that nobody else could see.Basically, I wish that you loved me,I wish that you needed me,I wish that you knew when I said two sugars, actually I meant three.I wish that without me your heart would break,I wish that without me you'd be spending the rest of your nights awake.I wish that without me you couldn't eat,I wish I was the last thing on your mind before you went to sleep.look All I know is that you're the nicest thing I've ever seen.and I wish that we could see if we could be something.I wish that we could see if we could be something.

I really like that song...




I feel what shes saying I guess, I want something special somehting I dont have something more then what I have I guess. I think a lot of girls can relate to wanting to be wanted and desired on a deeper level then just sex or the physical, but many of us don't get that. We stumble on realtionship after relatinship falling in and out of like/love with guys who only want us for the night, its sad but its true. The only light at the end of the tunnel that I can find in this whole big mess is that..... You gain a lot of wisdom in these journeys. And you find out how low or high another person can make you feel. Not sure if thats actally a ligth... well call it a shimmer at the end of the tunnel... happy Fri. the 13th people. ....

A$

*sings to self* "I wish my smile was your favorite kind of smile I wish the way that I dressed was your favourite kind of style".......

Break?

Well today is like my last day of class before break these last 2 weeks have been stupid trying. I've had so many papers and projects to pull together and  think I am almost there. I have a 4 page paper and power point presentation I need to generate before 1:30, it's 11:38 right now and I haven't started... I have problems I know but I am totally burnt out. Really I don't have any more attention to give, energy, nothing. I just want to waste time, sounds bad but I want to just like nap in a friends bed on a 80 degree day with my jeans on... 

In the midst of all the hell I lived threw these past 2 weeks I spent a lot of time thinking... things are so funny in my life right now, On New Years eve I made a pact with my girls that we'd have the best year ever 09 would be like the best thing to happen to us we would travel and find world wind romances and like sit on the beach and share 40 oz's crazy. Not all of that happened but a lot of it happened for some of us, we made it threw like 3 crazy months of absolute fun. some of us found that romance thing and I think that's awesome so your waiting for the but. There isn't one I don't believe everyone found what they were looking for, even me, my find wasn't wrapped in the paper of a romance or even a sandy beach with a forty and friends but rather a chance. 

A chance to, well I haven't figured out an exact word for my chance but to basically to do all the things I been saying I'd do. Things I'd dreamt about, places i dreamt abut living, starting the books I want to write and a chance to develop me. I am me yeah, but I can't remember a time I  existed on my own. DAMN that was a dose of truth yes people I am human. But ever since I could remember I had Destiny, or Lindsay or Tasha, or Sam, or Mitch, or Whitney or Antoine, or Chirsti or Vic... that's a lot of people but I they weren't all there at the same time but in my life at certain points each of them was my support system. There when I needed to vent or was lonely or wanted to laugh, They are all not gone but not there how they once were, NOT a bad thing at all.  I think at this point I have to find my own way, and God is defiantly positioning things in my life right now for me to do so.  

Finding yourself can be very scary and people hate to admit this because everyone loves to think they know exactly who they are and where they are going. Not me, I'm real I know I don't have all the answers, I don't know exactly who I am yet, I have an idea of who I want to be and from that long paragraph up there *points up on the page* am figuring out the path to get there.  

It's noon and I still haven't started that paper. 

I sat down to blog about something else and I guess this is what was really on my mind... funny how that happens to me. I wanted to talk about how lazy I am and how I want a break to be more lazy and how March has sucked for me. How I am the only person I know who is still single and I hate it, and how guys and people suck in general. I guess that's not how I really feel though. I don't think guys suck, I think that I don't invest the right things into relationships and then give up when they don't go the way I want them to, I don't settle for anything less then perfect, strange because I'm not, something I need to work on. People don't suck either I think people just need to be them and that's just dandy, I need to be me and find that thing that makes me forget about things too, or lose interest in all the bullshit that clogs up my life such as facebook and my sidekick. (sidebar i need a new phone if any one has a iPhone 3g for sale please let me know) OK so I have officially went off on a tangent so I'll end here

I am Asia right now today March 12th 2009 

I am not the conventional beauty, 

I'm not a girlfriend, 

I'm a student

I'm a friend

I'm Stubborn

I'm in pj's

I'm jobless

and I don't know what any of this means and I don't know where it's all going but....

I'll see.... 

It's 12:40 and I haven't started on that paper. 

A$

its over

its over and you know what i didnt think that it would hurt this bad. but it does... i cannot breathe. i cannot see. i cannot think. just emotion, and pain. i cannot differaicate between the two. i cannot tell if i am happy or if i am sad. i just know that there is pain. its over. i called it. i took for granted the good times and appericated the bad time too much. i thought of the arguements and not the laughter. i thought of the tears that i cried and not you wiping them away. will i be able to appericate the next or was it just you? am i just pushing out these tears to get over you? will that ever happen? thinking that if i was a boy i would know how i treated you, the roles were reversed, i was your mr. big and you were my carrie.... all you wanted was love and i felt that i had to many heartbreaks... i didnt believe in love. i see that i know what love is because i felt it with you....


there isnt any correct english here, there are no capital letters here, because there is no importance to these words... because it is over. they mean nothing... you are gone... i am here, you are there. its over.

d♥

rainsained Heart

Days like this rainy march Saturday wouldn't be spent partying how they are now, rather in my car on the way to get fried rice and some movies.... low budget scary movies to be exact those are my favorite.... going back to my loft making our plates getting comfortable and watching them movies, you laughing at how horrible they are and me laughing at you... cuddling.. Soon the tv is watching us and our full bellys and when we'd wake up to that blue screen I'd go for a pee and to refill our cups come back to some kisses and conversation or conversations turnt to kisses..talking about where we been where we goin... what we think we know at this age... that youthful kinda wisdom... just hugging as we talked... taking it all in, the smells the feelings and the taste of u... sentences finished with kisses instead of periods and new ones started with an embrace instead of a subject noun....or verb.. the night seemed to last forever, we'd tell our entire life stories to each other right there.... listening to the rain... making such an ugly day too damn perfect... we'd get to this point of silence I'm not sure what to call it, it'd just start with some intense kissing and be intertwined in each other before we knew it...ending the night with physical merriment.... passing out in each other......Tomorrow will be beautiful.... just like all those tomorrows were....

A$

Random... Noon...almost 1.

*Pandora is great.... I am such a hippy though I am listening to Lykke Li radio and like almost every song that plays wait I'm lying I haven't skipped once I like all the music. Only things playing are Kate Nash, Fiest,lykke li, Smoosh, Taken by trees and some chick named Mariah....

* I am annoyed with the people who like Lykke li now that they have heard the Drake mixtape.... "little bit" is her song... not his.. that was out like last year or even before then....

*The lyrics to the song that is playing right now "goodnight nother bad morning" if that shit isn't so true...

* how do you break up with someone you don't go with i think I did that last night.

I didn't want to though I was on that "for the best" shit. I hate that..... why cant we just be reckless and live life consequence free...

*worlds not perfect guess that's why.

* earlier there was a song that was playing about seeing the person your with kiss someone else in front of you... that's actually happened to me in life... it sucks but I laughed at the song, and the situation/// wonder what that means/

* I have been typing shit all morning, really, homework, work work, and more work work.

* I am hungry. very hungry seriously.

* i have also come to the conclusion that I am a good friend. yeah.... weird thought..

*whats next?

Should I Be Insulted, Or Flattered?

I don't if I should be flattered or insulted. This is real random. Actually some outta pocket shit.

I dont mess around with people like that for them to ask me for this shit.

This convo started off as "I think that (Blank) asked me to have a threesome"

Life is CRAY CRAY!